Working on it, but still missing the whole point?

Written by Geek Architects

February 24, 2020

Another prospect client want us to show him an "obscure or Out-of-this-world-work" before having our place in the bid, so we scanned all our previous ideas and renderings, but nothing is notable nor daring enough.


For more than five years, we've spent our time and overtimes drafting toilet/canopy/details, space planning for random interiors, consolidating MEPFS drawings from consultants and the usual general sections/bay sections/all the detailed stuff you don't see when you walk around malls, hotels, offices, etc. ie. floor/ceiling/door/window/door/wall/facade/waterproofing terminations to name a few, coordinating with random people and pleasing all the clients or internal higher ups, learning what they want and don't want without being a kiss-ass-assistant.


Hustling after our 8-6 jobs (working abroad/locally at developers /real estate companies/archi firms), we do freelancing for small scale and private clients. We accept almost any project we could enter legally as freelancers, like architectural design, plumbing design (as RMPs), architectural interiors and environmental planning (as EnP). Juggling everything we can to keep this race going.


But after all the hardwork, still, we haven't found anything worth to share with this client.


Why?


Maybe our standards just went higher after our experiences? That we can't make our skills at par with what we think is "deserving", "brave" or "extraordinary".


Or maybe, we just don't have the time to make one?


Or maybe, we just don't care anymore whether we give a half cook or unsatisfying output, just to meet the DEADLINE?


Nothing to blame but it's just simply how this profession works. If you can't play the game, you won't survive.


This is an example of one of many stories out there, how creativity and skills can fade away the moment you start prioritizing the real world errands. Resulting to uneasy feeling at some point, and then tiredness start to creep in afterwards. Until you haven't noticed, you're burnout.


Architectural practice in corporate world is really tiring and can turn an immense amount of energy to anxiety and causes sleep deprivation, just like any other profession. But the amount of stress and energy a project takes is not proportional to the time it requires to be designed and built, making this field really painstaking more than others.


The moment your passion for the field subsides, you start to question yourself, "Despite doing what you love while earning from it, why does it feel like all the eagerness seems gone?"


Maybe try to create a project out of your mind and do it no matter what people say. You're the one writing your own story using that skill God gave you. Just draw it out.


Have you ever felt doing lots of things, building up your career, but ended up missing the whole point why you're doing it?


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Sculpture credits to Pinto Art Museum​